My Ministry is Like Solitaire

I have been playing a lot of Spider solitaire lately. Its much like regular solitaire but more fun. As I move the piles of cards around I get a rush - and when it looks like I've lost the game and see a move I can make I get another rush. As distracted as I am this is something that can keep me busy and is very satisifying - if I lose I simply replay the same game to see if I can win it doing something slightly different or play a whole new game.

I've noticed the same feeling about my ministry. While I wait for my church to determine if I can do some work with them as my sponsor I have all of these possibilities. There is the church itself, some contact names I have in the community and another church nearby that if mine falls through might hold a possibility. Meanwhile I am working with the CRC with Race Relations - maybe something will come of that. Finally, there is a person I can contact if I am interested in talking with Classis about going into ministry. So there are options, but like Spider the shifting from possibility to possibility begins a whole new challenge. I hate not knowing! I hope to remain in the Reformed tradition but at this rate who knows? Its frustrating not getting much feedback from my proposal - well no feedback so far - I'm not even sure if it got onto the Council's agenda at this point. So patience is required.

In the meantime I have paper to finish tomorrow. And the first two weeks of March I'm off - but I have a sermon to prepare and a paper to do on a passage in Ephesians that will require a lot of work. Sadly, the work for the paper is the same work I have to do for the sermon - but a different topic.

So I have a lot of stuff I'm doing but no real direction for the summer ahead. I hate investing time in my church if I am going to have to move on.

Ultimately it is all in God's hands and he will use me somewhere!