Itchy Feet

I got talked into sticking with Hebrew and with a lot of diligence got through the mid term. I think I passed at any rate. Meanwhile I am feeling the urge to get a job. I'm tired of this bizarre life I have and we could do with the money. C has an interview tomorrow which I pray he will figure out how to handle. Its difficult to explain why someone who is terminated after 20 years is not at fault. This process of clearing his name is taking forever.

So I look at jobs but realize there are few I really want to do - many require some kind of commitment - if its someone's small business for instance. I really just want to be a tiny nameless cog in a great machine. Let me clock in and out with no fuss.

Meanwhile I'm trying to wind down the role I'm in right now. I can't fill 30 hours a month and my skills aren't being used at all. I started doing menial tasks just so I can do something for the money I earn.

Things never seem to be settled!

Is this on the exam!

Did you hear about the Nova Scotia tall ship that went down that is a floating school? The students were stuck in dinghy's waiting for rescue for 40 hours. Apparently they sang Disney songs to keep morale up - hmm, sounds like torture to me!!

What do you suppose children who learn in this unique way are like? I imagine there is a keener asking the whole time they are evacuating "Will this be on the exam?".

C'mon - no one died so I can make a little joke!

I'm so mixed up!

I think I have finally decided to drop Hebrew. I did really well first semester but now I'm stuck. I have a midterm on Monday that I have no time left to study for and I just can't get all these verb paradigms into my head!!

I do get about 40% of my fee back if I drop now. I can't remember if I have ever dropped a course! I am feeling really beat up about it - but I think I did as good as I could. I got a reallygood mark first semester but the prof got behind and we were going at a slower pace. The stupid thing is that other profs teach it in a different way so I will likely have to take first semester all over again.

I should feel relieved but I feel like a failure!

Giving up Nintendo

Since we don't have a tv our Nintendo which used to be up at the cottage is getting quite the work out. My hands are actually starting to hurt. So for Lent it has to go. I'm not sure what will replace it - hopefully studying and such. We only play one game - Dr. Mario - for hours. Its one of the few games where both players can play at the same time.

Getting rid of the tv was supposed to free up some money and time - but I still find ways to waste time - I need to find something productive to do.

Pancake Tuesday

Today is Shrove Tuesday and I'm going to get some pancakes at Golden Griddle. 3.99 on Tuesdays - the cheapest church one is around 5 dollars. Mind you that's for the full deal. But today I don't feel like being around people I know - I'm tired of talking about C's lack of work and job prospects. Its depressing - as soon as they hear he has been terminated the interviewer is never heard from again.

So my brother and husband will scarf them down with strangers. I wonder if in today's world it will be busier? How many people actually bother with Pancake Day. I remember doing this in school - I obviously am showing my age!

Where's Bobo?

Since starting school six years ago I have had my comfort blanket. My wine coloured sweatjacket. Its my thing. Even when the zipper broke I continued wearing it.

But where is it? It went missing last week - I thought maybe I left it at school but I don't see it in the lost and found. That in itself is an adventure. How do people lose winter coats? How do you go home not realizing that you don't have it on? There's tons of stuff just waiting to be picked up. Like a decorative cushion - maybe someone used it for class for their back. Tons of mugs, a few scarfs and quite frankly I didn't want to dig and deeper.

Bobo where are you?!

Poor people are non-Christians

I'm getting tired of the poverty angle the church keeps promoting. Had a sermon "The Rich Young Ruler". C liked it - I really wasn't into it. The pastor presented North Americans as all Rich Young Rulers. Our response to Christ is to give choices to those around us. She brought what she called "heroes" to church as they decided to live in a poorer part of town in order to serve them.

I have heard this before - we are called to serve the poor - lets find poor people and help them out.

This church is in a wealthy part of town. The poorest are those who are students. The majority of the community is not living in poverty. The solution seems to be that we are to find poor people. What I want to know is why aren't there any Christians living in Regent Park? Do all the Christians live in the rich parts of town? If so why don't I see a lot of people on the streets around the church in church? Or are they all busy on Sundays slumming it?

I am not poor. I have never been poor. I did not come to Christ out of my physical poverty - no soup kitchen, food drive or mental health outreach service was ever going to reach me. I was too rich to need these things. Why am I to be taken out of my community that I understand and thrust upon the poor as though I am the answer to the questions I don't even know?

Let's stop treating the poor as an way - an easy way I might add - of sharing Christ. These are people - not projects. Let's assist the Christians and churches in those areas with funds - that is what is needed - churches cannot exist in poor areas because the Christians cannot give enough to pay the rent and salaries of the church workers. I say to all churches - direct a portion of your tithes to a poor church - who can use the money to help the Christians address systemic needs. Ask people for what they need - and respond.

Let's stop assuming that poverty is a non-Christian problem!

how we can be more visible outside our building

This is the question I am asked to grapple with in my job. Our building is huge. Picture a huge stone church with 3 sets of double front doors. Picture a huge rectangle. How can we be more visible? The picture above is Lincoln Church - ours is bigger!

I think the question is how can what we do in the church be more obvious to those outside. But even this doesn't make sense - we would make one hell of an ugly hotel and a rather monolithic funeral home. Perhaps a restaurant - with stained glass windows. I have mistaken some small town funeral homes for restaurants - never to the point of walking in I hasten to add.

I'm not trying to be bitchy but its frustrating to be asked to "advertise" for a building. It's like asking the White House to let people know its there. People know its there - they may or may not care and they may or may not know what goes on inside - and they may or may not want to come in once or ever.

Romantic Meeting

Why is someone with pink eye cluttering up the ER! Victoria, surely you can do better then pink eye - work your way up to mangled hand in machinery or overcome with noxious fumes!

Scarborough General - m4w - 24 (emergency waiting room)

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Date: 2010-01-22, 4:56PM EST

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HI, your names Victoria. We met in the waiting room at Scarborough General. We joked for 20 minutes til the nurse pulled you away. You just found out you were pregnant and you're here all alone from Turkey. Maybe you'd like some company since you have no one here. Im the guy with the red eye lol, you said most girls would run away. Well I can tell you defintaley arent like most girls :) Hopefully somehow you get this!

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Craigslist Gold - Gun and Skeleton Costume

I appreciate that creating a film takes a lot of props - but its hard to imagine how "good" this film is going to be considering they are looking for a skeleton costume - and fake tombstones. This ain't Avatar....

*INDIE FILM NEEDS PROPS!* (Toronto)

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Date: 2010-01-19, 11:07PM EST
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We are starting our production on our independent film in the upcoming month but are lacking some essential props.
If you have any of the following and wouldn't mind lending or offering them for rental at a cheap price (as our budget is very limited) we would very much appreciate it.
We are currently needing:

Revolver (classic style)
Skeleton Costume
Anything that would be suitable for a cemetery scene (faux tombstones)

We are also looking for a studio space for some shooting as one of our characters (a painter) is going to be shot painting a canvas in this space. If you have an available space or know someone that may please send us an email.
This is a great film and we would very much appreciate all the support we can get!

Riden

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