I've been away...

I'm not creative, much. But I some some photos and blog from some friends and I was moved to put a few words onto my blog. Part of me thinks no one reads these things and part of me thinks even if they do what is the point? I'm a bit old for blogging and still a bit self conscious about it I guess.

Anyhow, I have been away and as I guessed before signing on since November. I have been going through a stage or mood where I have been very reflective and just thinking a lot. Its been nice but it has also meant that I had to remove myself from people and places for awhile.

I think my biggest revelation is that while I journey with others and learn from them I need to know when to stand my own ground and consider myself has having some insight. There is a balance between not needing anyone else's opinion, being blind to others perspectives and learning from others. I've made great strides in this and was able to walk away from an ambush by a fellow student realizing that almost everything she said was much more revealing about her than having anything to do with me. Which was surprising as I had really connected with this person.

I've been reading War and Peace and have found it fascinating as it is really a reflective book which mirrors some of my own thoughts. Some of the characters keep seeking heroism, enlightenment, meaning and once journeying the path realise that its not to be obtained. I think that ultimately the characters will realise that these things come from within by being rather than doing but that seems like a trite obvious revelation.